I think it was an emotional build up and it just erupted last night. I believe what put her over the top (along with comments made to her by the coach before the game, like she wasn’t trying hard enough and at other games and practices) was that the girls were doing a build (for those unfamiliar to cheering, a build is when the girls hold up one girl high in the air) and it looked awesome. The Assistant Coach, aka evil chic came around and did a “Good Job” knuckle punch to all the girls except my Pookie. I witnessed it!! I was in shock!! I even mouthed something to Pookie along the lines of - "WHAT THE HECK". Anyway, at half time Pookie and I were walking to get some food and she just dropped her head in my shoulders and just cried. She was feeling so defeated. God it broke my heart as well as set off the “mother instinct”. I think we ALL know what that feels like, the adrenaline is pumped and the heart is pounding. Well she regained her composure and we continued to get some food when the coach called Pookies’s name, I didn’t even hear it, we turned around and walked back to the coach and all the coach said – first thing out of her mouth - “Kate what is the MATTER with you”. I didn’t say anything and let Kate explain how she was giving her all and standing stiff, but the coach cut her off and told Pookie her stance was slumped – THAT WAS NOT THE CASE. I was watching Kate the entire first half and she was perfect and stiff and did jumps and kicks. So “I” piped in and said, “that’s bullshit”. The entire conversation went downhill from there. Coach said, “don’t swear at me”. Thought going through my head - For god sakes what did you want me to say, “you lying sack of lard”? (she weighs something like 180-200 lbs) Is that any better?? Anyway, like I said it went all downhill from there and I completely, entire, with every mother instinct I had - LOST IT! Yes, I lost all ability to talk coherently and make sense or say anything to put lard butt in her place. I feel ashamed for my actions, BUT ONLY because I don’t want anything I said to cause repercussions in school for Pookie.
And Pookie quit the team!
Update as of 11:00AM today. All is good so far for Pookie!